Hi. As the title above says, I'm not feeling well. No, I'm not sick, thats not it.

I feel rejected. Alone. Miserable. Used even.

Lets just say I love someone. And they don't love me back. Typical much? Not in my case. I feel like I'm being cheated on with a dozen people.

I feel broken and just, so alone. I've picked up a old habit to ease the pain. The words "Love me" are imbeded on my ankle. With the word "Me" scratched out.

I'm in total pain. Just like my three-year depression period. Suicide has runthrough my head quite a bit. I've cried almost every night. Crying myself to sleep over how worthless I am.

Yes, I know I sound like a emo kid. I don't care, I'm only telling you guys the truth. Sad songs have been poping up more and more in my ears and head. Two passions of mine have died out.

I was hoping to start cospaying, but that seem so far away. I guess everything does.

I'm slowly dieing I guess. On the inside. I've been lied to so much by the ones I love.

Too much.

I guess I'm just an ugly, lonely, un-intelegent, heatrbroken, emo, loveless, clingy, sad, fragile, un-creative, invisible, girl who cries too much and has no dreams left.

Maybe someday, someone, hopefully a guy, will find favor in me.